A MishMash of Thoughts

So we move into our new place on August 15th. One more month and I will be a Bull City resident. Who woulda thunk it? I need to start praying for furniture and decorating ideas. The apartment is just so nice that you can't just throw any ole kinda furniture in there. And right now I don't have the money to do anything major so.....it's gonna hafta be a God thing.

Speaking of God....the conference this past week was great. Marvin Sapp's message was by far the most challenging and it made me realize these things:
1. Major increase doesn't come w/o major sacrifice. I been looking for increase in my spiritual life and in my finances, but what have I been willing to give up to get there? Not very much I am sad to say. If I ain't willing to sacrifice then I ain't got no bizness praying for increase.
2. I still have not let go of a certain someone. There is still this idea in my head that nobody else can be as good for me as he seemed to be. I am still living in the past...comparing guyz to him and basically not having the faith that God has something better. I can't walk in my destiny if I'm still living in my history.
3. My new job is forcing me out of my comfort zone in so many ways. It's forcing me to grow up. It's forcing me to speak up. It's forcing me to put myself out there. It's forcing me to make connections and network. It's forcing me to delegate responsibilities, and manage a staff, and so many other things that just aren't easy and comfortable for me. I praise God that He is getting me out of that comfortable place, but it certainly ain't easy. Sometimes I long for that comfortable place again, but I know that when I am comfortable I don't grow. And that is not an option.

Last week at work was fun . I presented to kids at this camp in Durham and I gave a presentation at my old job in CH. It was great being out of the office and I liked getting to know the volunteers better. The kids at the camp are rowdy, but they are so smart and so fun to be around. They are really starting to open up about their lives and I am looking forward to the opportunities we have this week to really pour into them and love on them.

I got my hair cut really short. Honestly it's not what I wanted, but praise God my hair grows back fast. That's why I never get distraught over a haircut...because I know that in about a month, it will have grown out considerably.

This post is boring. And I have nothing else to say. So I'm out.